MOST WANTED

The order of things we want ..
while we say goodbye to the ones we need
nothing gets accomplished till i get what i want first
does it have to be that way ?!?!

lessons 2013

2 & half year of being in business

lesson - no business w/o leverage(i don't mean it in financial terms alone)
personal one - i killed wishful thinking

The case of a curious mosquito

Allout when you switch it on
some get back inside when you sleep

such is the case of a curious mosquito

Responsible for sleepless nights,intense hatred and reaction
Last night was the last of it

3 am and it was back
buzzing and staring at its dinner
a healthy woman sleeping in peace
There were other nights when she didn't wake up ,chose to ignore it but not this one
As if taken by surprise , she woke up and decided to get rid of it

after a few attempts at catching it , she decided to lead the mosquito to its death .
there it was facing its own reflection along with her's in the mirror
after an ugly swat it was buried in glass.

next came the brother , this one needed a new strategy , wasn't gonna fall for the same mirror trick
she led it into a dark room and tried shutting the door , but the mosquito was too clever
now this one had to be killed to ensure the rest of the nights were peaceful

along came citronella ..no she's not a princess
a few drops of it in and around the bed , sealed the vast expanses of distance which in mosquito miles would be the distance from JP nagar to BIAL .
an hour letter , the spell no longer worked and it was back

i can't believe i wrote this post :-)

dexter and entrepreneurship

A death knell for any career ....

why would i want to write about dexter .. and what i think most entrepreneurs can learn from dexter ?

first of all entrepreneurship is overrated .....by media , people other than entrepreneurs and the community at large .....seriously no one deserves to put themselves through an uphill challenge at every stage ...its not about that at all .....a simple follow your instincts approach should work quite ok ...all depends on whether you have prepared yourself to make the most of your journey ...before this sounds boring here goes my post with dexter ...

for those of you unfamiliar with dexter ....use wiki or google ...for the others ...i m not much of a fan of the series , i never felt comfortable watching it , however the last episodes of the gellar series have got me hooked ....i wondered how a few of my friends watched dexter , what fascinated them about a series thats not really recommended for everyone ....but i guess everyone has a takeaway from it ....mine is limited to getting this blogpost done .

i couldn't help but notice his dexterity ....but that's not what this post is about :-)

dexter has an urge , is excited by .......thats foremost in entrepreneurship  ---no excitement means no action means no results

dexter constantly learns , questions , challenges himself , searches for solutions ....

dexter must follow his instincts ...when all else fails

dexter aims for better victims ....he is challenged by better opponents who get the best out of him .

dexter knows himself well ....his journey is his education .

dexter put his urge to better use - had to be helped by a mentor

dexter manages to lead a normal life inspite of his private focused odd mission.

dexter has a strong willpower ,which even his toughest opponents can't match

dexter pays attention to detail and picks up clues which even the best in his profession could not.

dexter surrounds himself with resources that match his mission...a serial killer working in a homicide department is as good as it gets ...

dexter knows his kind , he tries to assess their skills , their patterns ,their reasons and knows learns how to be better at the game.

dexter has a sole mission which changes over time fitting in changing priorities - thats reality .


and last but the best of all ....he's open to being wrong ....he constantly questions if he is wrong in assessing a situation ....it helps him correct his course and make his mission a success .....that unfortunately is a skill most entrepreneurs should still learn from dexi-- and now that i ve given him a fond pet name ..ill stop here .

C'mon life

This morning has been strange , slept with some thoughts , found some solutions ....as i grapple with extra time on hands , all i can say is ...i will be able to liberate myself further ...paying attention to things i may not have earlier ...i seem to have cracked my secret code to workoholism ....yes u got it right ...avoiding pain by working too hard .....well not to discount my ambitious nature ...but i seem to have overworked the last 2 years just to avoid some pain . well i see a solution at sight now and for those who work with me ...too bad i m gonna be working only half as hard from now on :-)

As i spent last week ,not rushing , not fighting , not moving.....it was a blissful state , its as if u tear a map in bits and pieces and shake those pieces up and just let them fly ....maybe a few bits will actually fall into place ....who cares about the rest of the map ...these few bits fell in place all by itself ....

The struggle to establish what i wanted vs what i was heading towards ....is a matter of minor adjustment .Atleast the way i see it today ....focus on the bigger picture , the larger intention and give myself the time to see ,observe ,listen ... and move forward ..

I ve seen many of my friends grapple with those bits of the map , only to just let it fall in place and be happy in its effortlessness .

Nudge those events,people,resources around you just a bit , never to change its true course , observe what looks like your own bigger picture and choose that ....

C'mon life ...lets move it !

The mundane becomes pleasurable

Of all the things warped in life ...since i got started on my business venture ..
the worst or the best seems to be simple pleasures in mundane tasks ..
a week has gone by fixing the most non value adding things around ...
chairs,broadband , new office essentials and the only thing that has got me past such boredom ..
its probably the rest and relaxation it provided my brain ...
as i wasted more time on the mundane ..i realized there were others lazily getting through life with no purpose...a day lost in oblivion would make no difference to their lives ...
then came the choice of living with no ambition ....how wud that feel ?
must try it some day ...
as i waited an hour waiting for my bsnl line application to move from one desk to another ...the dead pace of others got to me ...all i needed after that was more dead pace ....as addictive as it was ...it was strangely pleasurable ..
the yawning while waiting
the dreaming while staring at space
the lusting while hoping the broadband connection goes live ..
that lone lunch ,,where i wondered if such stolen moments are the only solace for an individual's spirit ..
and the wake up call ...when i got an sob code to move my file from one department to another ...only to realize the file still takes a day to get to the next building ...

The Uninitiated

This week has already been too introspective for my taste .
however its always good to evolve theories no one subscribes to ever ...
hence my theory of the initiated and the uninitiated ..

purely in terms of conquering life and its fears ...
i have a long way to go ....and now i m busy figuring out the fastest way to get over it ..

why the fastest ? ....we'll once u ve tasted fearlessness...there's no need to hold on to it any longer .

reasons maybe few ,,,but i like the dose of good luck and energy that comes my way everyday , even more so than last year
yes it did take me a while to clear the baggage but now that its gone ...i d really like this new found freedom in the way i think ..

all through my life , i did question a lot more than today ..u'd think introspection makes me question it more ...not true ..life's set in some effortless pattern of thinking ...pure instinct u can say ...i have less n less time to ponder and "less is more " when it comes to acting on anything ...

i never knew i could learn a lot from others ...be it your parents , siblings , mentors , friends , acquaintances and special someone's ....but its more so than ever , that i rely on experience to teach and initiate the wild ..

i read a beautiful book once and i have read it again n again ...its ideally meant for women " women who run with the wolves"...and i thought abt this book this morning ...

As most boundaries seem non-existent , paths can be carved even if its impossible as long as you believe , try and move forward with a fresh change ..

but the success will depend on just one thing ...are you fully initiated ?

and to be .....you may need someone who is

As i look for others who are on the same path , i have been fortunate to already meet a few who are at different stages and its an unbelievable spark that like mindedness can create ...

to coast together in a different land only cos you view it differently yet live among others ,and be happy with others will be an unreal experience ...spread across geographies and your neighborhoods there will always be others " Like you "...all of us are somewhere close to wanting the "initiation" ( honestly it cud be anything ) ....want it badly it always finds you and sets your free ...there is wisdom in a moment , that years cannot teach and that is always in an initiated moment ..

i do plan to spend most of my days searching for those moments ...

Find your's today ..